Out of Character

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Monday, January 31, 2005

Who Am I?

At what age do you really decide who you are? Every time I think I've found me I am sorely mistaken. I've been so many different people in my 29 years that I have myself thourally (sp?) confused at this point. I enjoy every aspect of life ...from every angle. I want to be the Soccer mom, the groupie at the front of the stage, the missionary who spreads God's word ...the pornstar or hot dancing girl on the stage ...the bikers gf, party girl and mother of 4 ...I want to experience everything there is to do and have had every hobby there is out there ..but I find myself developing crushes ..on a weekly basis ...and it dawned on me this morning ...I'm not crushing on these boys ...I'm crushing their lives. Yesterday I met a guy that races bikes ...on a Nat'l level ...that's all he does ...travels and races ...Initially I was not attracted ...but the more I thought about it the more into him I was ...which caused me to explore this fasination a bit further. What exactly attracted me to him ...and it was his lifestyle. Those who know me well ...can vouch that I am never the same and always the same ...my lifestyle changes to suit the boy I am most in love with at the time. Which may sound ..unfullfilling (again sp?) ...but it is so not ...I see the world from a lot of different positions and get to do things I never imagined I would ...and never get tired of being me ...whoever I am. Do you think this is healthy ..is everyone this way on the inside? Do you have a secret crush today?

p.s. I like this link a very cool friend sent to me today!

http://www.rogueforum.com/acow/dorthythecow.htm

25 Comments:

  • At 9:23 AM, Blogger Strawberrie-Shortcake said…

    LOL ...I think I must've missed a step growing up ...I'm still looking for that girl..

     
  • At 9:39 AM, Blogger John Q. Public esq. said…

    dont sweat it, I am the same way...I think at times I have had a 100 lives...

    and about the crush, I dont know anymore...

    anyway, good morning!

     
  • At 9:47 AM, Blogger Winning Loser said…

    I am not sure how healthy it is, but you seem okay for now. Although nothing is more fufilling than finding something yourself and doing andn ot because of someone else.

     
  • At 9:48 AM, Blogger Strawberrie-Shortcake said…

    I wanna dirt bike! I love to get muddy and look cool;)

     
  • At 9:53 AM, Blogger Ed said…

    I'm 29, but I can pass for anywhere from 19 to 25, depending on how much sleep I get. Add to that the fact that I live in a college town, and there's some pretty strong temptation to act anything but my age. And as a very wise person once said, I can resist anything but temptation.

     
  • At 9:59 AM, Blogger Strawberrie-Shortcake said…

    I know I should get my own life ...but other people do some really cool stuff that I really have fun doing!

     
  • At 10:03 AM, Blogger Rainbow-Bright said…

    SS, you know...it's always a phase with us and this to shall pass. You and I change our minds (and state of happiness)more times in one day/week than most do their whole lives!

    It's that feeling of contentment to which you and I have never known...probably never will. It's okay though, we thrive on change.

    Today's Crush? It is still early, so nobody yet. Give me till noon! LOL

     
  • At 10:10 AM, Blogger Strawberrie-Shortcake said…

    I know ...I just crave excitement ...when the new-ness wears off I'm on to the next best thing ...I sometimes think about long term relationships and wonder if I will ever follow thru ...but unless he can morph into John Wayne from Vin Diesel OVERNIGHT then I am thinking ...maybe not. However, I am, surprisingly, still content with the rockstar today ...this may be the longest lasting relationship yet!!

     
  • At 10:20 AM, Blogger Master Foley said…

    There is this think called a dictionary, sweetie.

     
  • At 10:38 AM, Blogger Strawberrie-Shortcake said…

    hmmm ...a "think" called a dictionary?? Really ...much to busy for that ...you get the general ideal;) I know, i know, idea...

     
  • At 10:54 AM, Blogger Master Foley said…

    doh

     
  • At 11:05 AM, Blogger Winning Loser said…

    Ha ha, you are dope! But SS, I hope you didn't think I was down on you, as long as you find happiness it doesn't matter. And you seem pretty happy so it's all to the good. Love ya!

     
  • At 11:12 AM, Blogger Strawberrie-Shortcake said…

    I'm a very happy girl ..just always trying to figure out who that girl is ...and wonder if other people go thru all the crazy things and thoughts that I do? ...and ...I didn't take it personally;)

     
  • At 11:30 AM, Blogger Winning Loser said…

    Good because upsetting you would make me feel even more awful than I do about having to miss out on Master Foley's gatherings. You'll figure yourself out or not, but just be happy!

     
  • At 2:09 PM, Blogger John Q. Public esq. said…

    hey sweet pea, did ya get my e-mail? Now that was some funny shit (at least it made me smile)...

    oh, and reg. your post...think of it this way:
    "if your not on the edge, your just tak'en up space"
    thats the sweet and loving Mrs JQP's motto...

    other than that happy monday from the trenchs!

    JQP DDS

     
  • At 2:30 PM, Blogger Strawberrie-Shortcake said…

    hee hee hee! That was hilarious! The boy just laughed so hard ...which made me laugh out loud!

     
  • At 3:05 PM, Blogger John Q. Public esq. said…

    well if I would of seen 4 old ladies kick the shit out of some old boy I would of laughed so hard I woulda pissed my pants (which is not something I do often) laugh and/or piss my pants, glad you liked it,and btw the fun and freaky Mrs. JQP said to tell ya "your the prettiest girl in the whole trailer park and thats no lie"....

    you know the black eye it a turn on....sorry got to run, its to damn hard typing with broken fingers, yes...I know its my own damn fault....

    JQP QMRP/MS

     
  • At 3:06 PM, Blogger Strawberrie-Shortcake said…

    ...Strawberrie is blushing ...thanks Miss;)

     
  • At 3:26 PM, Blogger Winning Loser said…

    You're cute when you blush! How's your day going?

     
  • At 3:38 PM, Blogger Strawberrie-Shortcake said…

    My day is flying by ...compounded by the fact that RB insisted I meet her in another state for food and drinks ...she likes to get me drunk ya'll ...the day's gone and my work is still here ...hmmm

     
  • At 3:41 PM, Blogger Master Foley said…

    Those that get you drunk are good friends indeed.

     
  • At 3:42 PM, Blogger Winning Loser said…

    Well, if you follow my friend Deacon Peck's advice over at his blog News From the Front you'll see this week has been cancelled.

     
  • At 4:13 PM, Blogger Strawberrie-Shortcake said…

    LOL! That's great ...I don't think my boss got the memo. ...maybe i should forward the link:)

     
  • At 4:16 PM, Blogger Winning Loser said…

    Go ahead, it might even work! By the way, is it creepy that I am imagining you naked?

     
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