While SS is away on "business" in the cheese state, I figure I should come up with something to post so this is what I came up with...

TEN THINGS THAT HAVE CHANGED IN THE LAST 6 MONTHS

1. I am a single mother of 2
2. I live with my best good friend in the whole world
3. She takes care of the laundry...and my 3 y/o when I am about to kill her
4. My son is now a....SOPHMORE
5. I'm driving a sporty Maxima...not the SUV of death
6. The health of both of my grandparents is fading fast...they now require contant care
7. This breaks my heart and makes me want to slow down more to take care of them
8. I sold my house, my home of 8 freakin' years
9. I still have nowhere to live and have 30 days to figure it out
10.I know that I will not be alone (see # 2) and this makes me happier than she knows

Clear as a bell

I am sort of still spinning from my totally eventful weekend. I think the realization of my impending divorce hit me like a ton of bricks last week. A big thanks to SS and Becka for reminding me that this week would be SIX months of separation for me. Six long months and no real strides made either way...we were in a holding pattern. I was suffering, my kids were suffering and their was no real end in sight Until this weekend...

Almost-Ex picked up the kids Saturday afternoon as usual, he was keeping them for the night. I didn't have any real plans for the weekend but had been talking with WAY TOO CUTE firefighter for about a week and he has been "trying" to talk to me longer...I always resisted, hoping things would work out with my marriage. I actually even thought about setting him up with SS...until her and hot wake board boy hooked up again. He is just too nice of a guy and an excellent conversationalist. We can spend hours talking about anything and everything or we can just sit in total silence and enjoy the tune on the radio.

...anyway, got sidetracked a little. :) After spending the day on the lake with FF, and having a wonderful time...I awaited the call from kids saying they were on their way home. Of course, Almost-Ex got on the phone and asked 20 questions. When I told him I was with "a few people," he got the idea and of course was not happy. I mean, he could date and see whomever he chooses, but it's a different story with me, right? What followed after his initital anger is the best part of the story (aside from the sweet little goodbye kiss from FF) we actually TALKED! No yelling, arguing or blaming...we just opened up and let it all go. It was such a moment of clarity for me...he was actually "relieved" that I had been honest with him about my boating date. I think it alleviated some of the guilt he has been holding for doing whatever he has been up to.

Mainly I think we realized that we are great parents...we are NOT a great couple and both of us only wants the best for the other one but the kids are first and foremost our priority. They will be happy if we are happy...even if it's not with each other.

So, today is the first day of my new life (old me is back, I'm happy to report)...and I am ready to take on the world!

When can I exhale?

Yeah...I know it has been like forever and a year since I posted anything. Well, except the dialog between SS and I but really, that didn't take much time and I feel that I have abandoned all of my blog buddies and surely that was not my intent. Things have been moving at a much faster pace than I would like and I am one that likes to go, go, go all the time. Something just have to give or else I'm gonna have a major melt-down.

First, I haven't even reported back about my job interview...I did accept the position. True it is $500 a year less than I am making now but losing the stress and responsibility alone is worth that. Figure in the gas savings from taking my daily miles down to 5 as opposed to 40...the extra week vacation, extra sick leave AND that the job that I really want will be open in less than two years...and the $500 is nuthin'! So, I am trying to find my replacement here, finish the budget, clean my office, and take care of daily problems that I am so glad to leave behind. I will be sad my last day here, I really care about this place and what happens to it...I just need to move on and hopefully up to bigger and better things.

Last weekend, SS and I participated in the annual Relay for Life in our county and I am happy to report that our site alone raised over $85,000! WhoooHooo!!! While doing activities for that event totally stresses me out (and put 300 zits on my face) I think it is an awesome cause and I am proud to be invloved. The fact that I only got 4 hours sleep in a 24 hour period didn't help the zits either but I'm happy to report that thanks to my de-stressing day off shopping with a good friend yesterday, I'm all clear! Oh and have cute, cute clothes too!

This weekend, is my 10 year (eeek....I'm old) wedding anniversary. Gosh, how has he put up with me that long? It hasn't been easy I know but I look forward to a fun weekend...getting gifts...and GREAT anniv. SEX! ;) SS has agreed to keep the kids and that is wonderful because I plan on getting my groove on late into the night at a club...then in the bed. If you don't know...loud sex is forbidden when you have kiddos in the house and I miss that. What would I do without Strawberrie to help me out with my sex life???

With all that has gone on and will go on...posting will be very scarce. It's probably not a good idea to take a break from training my replacement next week to blog...then I'll be on vacation for a week. Can I get a "HELL YEAH"??? I am so looking forward to that and celebrating my baby girl's second birthday. Then I will start my new job...wish me luck guys...and that the new place doesn't interfere with my blogging or chatting. I know how some places of employement frown upon it and all. ;)

Have a great weekend everyone! Be safe and have lots of great sex!

Oh happy day!

First, I must appologize for my boring post yesterday. I re-read this afternoon and I even had a hard time getting through it. I should have just said...I rocked to BFS and left it at that. So, sorry...not one of my finer moments!

So, today was my interview and I am so super psyched. I found out that not only would I have my own office (biggggg office) but I would also be able to modify my hours to what I want! Also...they will continue to let me attend any trainings I want, so more "business" trips like the one I'm about to attend will be in my future. Another big plus is that they reimburse me for up to 80% of college courses, so I will be able to finish my degree...FINALLY!

All this sounds great and I can't wait to talk to them next week when I return...then, we will discuss money. We all know thats what its really about. Are they willing to pay me what I believe I am worth and deserve??? Of course I think I'm worth BIG DOLLARS, I mean my butt sex post alone says that, right? ; ) I think my chances are good of getting what I ask for and I am so looking forward to talking to them next week and getting this finalized.

Hope you guys have a great week and PLEASE keep Strawberrie company, she will post later in the week I'm sure but she had a rough weekend and has been busy. Let's just say that what she will post has me on "cloud 9"! Not the whole story cause its not the best but the outcome...it's what I've been waiting over a year for! Oh and also tell her that she NEEDS to visit me in Lexington later in the week! ;)