Out of Character

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Friday, August 26, 2005

ON BEING IRRESPONSIBLE...

I QUIT MY JOB TODAY ...I CAN'T BELIEVE I QUIT MY JOB. THIS HAS TO BE THE MOST IRRESPONSIBLE THING I'VE EVER DONE. WHAT KIND OF SINGLE MOM QUITS HER JOB BEFORE SHE HAS ANOTHER ONE. ...I JUST FIGURED EVERYTHING ELSE WAS FALLING APART ..WHY NOT QUIT MY JOB WHILE I WAS AT IT. IT'S OFFICIAL FOLKS ..THE BREAKDOWN IS IN FULL SWING:

Exit Interview (email from boss):

I consider this note to me a resignation of your position.

Just so we are clear, my job here is not to make you feel warm and welcome, my first job here is to operate this business profitably.
I do not dislike you in any way, nor feel that you do a bad job and will give you a recommendation. Your attention to detail does occasionally suffer and could be an area for improvement. On the positive side, you are excellent with customers and a friendly voice on the phone. Your persona greeting those who enter is friendly and warm.

I do not accept that you have not been given training, because it is my belief that you absorbed the part of the job you wanted and did not pursue the rest. Our goal was to hire someone we could train in all aspects of this business and you have made it clear you do not wish to pursue the more technical portions. It is my belief you have grown all you are willing to grow here. I do not think that this position has been fulfilling for you, nor fits you well as you seem to desire a busy, people filled environment.

Your personal life is just that. I cannot control what happens to you outside of this building, nor wish to try. I know it is impossible to completely disengage, but you should strive for more personal detachment at work. On my personal note, I always wish you well, success and happiness.

As you have notified me of your desire to find other employment, I ask that you not work past September so we can make plans to find your replacement. Of course, you may leave at any time.

You have today to reconsider your resignation.

**signed-BOSS**

From Me To Boss:

I don’t talk to you because I never know how your attitude will be ..wether you will welcome me or make me feel totally unwanted. I honestly believe that you have grown to dislike me very much …like I have disappointed you in some way ..and since working here …I dislike me and am disappointed too. I have never understood my job and …don’t feel I was ever given the training I needed to excel. I don’t think I’ve ever felt so useless in my whole life. The only reason I am still here is because I hate to quit and I like the Natzi.

My whole world is falling apart right now. I didn’t get to go to sleep until 3:30 this morning ..and yet I tried to come in here with a smile on my face. I really didn’t need you to hurt my feelings again.

I appreciate you giving me the chance to work here but I think it’s time for me to move on. I’m going to start looking for a job next week.

**Signed SS**

From: Boss
To: Me

My comment was meant for **Nazi Co-worker**. He gets uncomfortable with small talk, and you like to talk to him and I find it amusing.
My comment, said with sarcasm, was a continuation of the “I wish **other co-workers** would talk to you too” conversation we already had.

My fault, again sorry

**Signed Boss**

Monday, August 22, 2005

CAN YOU HEAR ME NOW?

Soccer Mom rocked out the Seether show on Saturday night at the Ky State Fair;) My darling daughter is quite a little rockstar and ...I'm pretty sure she would've absolutely killed over had we not made this show (in the rain).

I had a small observation regarding "baggage check" ...THERE WASN'T ONE! ...Seems odd to me too. When I was younger and wanted/tried to sneak in all my "contraband" I was STRIP SEARCHED (wow ..those were the good ol' days) ...Now ..there isn't even any security ..or wasn't at this particular showing. This was an (FREE!!) outdoor show at Cardinal Stadium -We walked right in with our gate admission from the fair. WHO KNEW! I could've packed in my meth, ...maaaan *sighs* -Had I known I probably, honestly, would've taken a little tequila just to calm me! hee hee hee. ...I am so not big on such "hateful music" ...there's just so much RAGE in it. I listen to music to calm me ...not make me epileptic!

My baby girl is "hard core" ...She admits today that she may have "sprained her elbow" throwing up some kind of "hang loose" sign (I think that's what that means) repeatedly in time with the music -FOR 4 HOURS! I totally had no business at this concert ..I'm pretty sure I was the oldest person there and did not have enough tattoos or piercings to even come close to fitting in here. **looks VERY embarrassed** I've never felt so "homely" in all my life -my looks TOTALLY need re-vamping for the next show... YES! YOU HEARD ME RIGHT ...I'll be going back -first chance I get ..but not for Seether ...it was hot band boy in Dark New Day ( http://www.darknewday.com/ )that got my vote. ...I have no idea who he is ..but he's got this edgy ..slightly older ..rustic rough look to him ..that made soccer mommy wet with sweat **quivers with delight**. I am officially this rockstars groupie girl!!

Friday, August 12, 2005

HAPPY HOUR..

Cocktail
?? Which Alcoholic Drink Are You ??

If you were in my hands -What kind of drink would I be having?

Thursday, August 11, 2005

ON CRAPPY CHILDHOODS..

I don't want to say my family is fully "dysfunctional" ...Who's isn't?? ...But I will say it has left me a little more than "affected".

Here's a memory I've surpressed for quite sometime. My dad is a fireman. I can remember visiting him numerous times at the fire house. ...Many a Christmas and thanksgiving spent there as well ...However, one visit seems to stand out in my mind if I don't make a conscious effort to push it back.

When I was 8 years old I visited Engine Co. number 10. Like any other kid ...I always had to use the bathroom and snoop around the medicine cabinet. Only this time was different. Dad's company only employed men at the time (before women knew they could be firemen too!) So dad did the "bathroom check" ..then ushered me in. I look at (okay in!) their lockers and around the locker room ...then I open the door to the bathroom stall ...and there is a whole stack of magazines ...with naked girls all over (in) them. I had never ever seen anything like this. I was intrigued ...yet mortified. I will never ever forget that day. It haunts me.

Affected I, much, remain...

Monday, August 08, 2005

Is it in his Kiss?

Is there always "that one special guy" out there for each of us? Or couldn't we just "learn to love someone". I used to believe in love at first sight ...till I fell in love with everyone I looked at. I think I may just be "in love with love" ...if that makes sense.

The rockstar, though completely immature, irresponsible and unmotivated ...really captured my heart. We had instant chemistry ...and alot of fun together. I don't know what went wrong or when it did exactly. All I know is we are now worlds away. ...and I miss the way we laughed and enjoyed everyday. He really knew how to make me smile ...like no one else ...when he wanted to.

I have recently been "going/hanging out" with *hot wakeboarding boy (with boat mind you!!)* and he's a really super nice guy ...very family oriented, own business (financial security) and is ...just genuinely ...a "good guy". ...But ..the chemistry doesn't seem to be there ...and I'm not sure it's there for either one of us. Is it possible that chemistry will find its way in later? We enjoy time together ...we like a lot of the same things ...he's a friend of the family and ..that's a plus ...as I prefer to spend my weekends with my family! ..but ...we are ...just not that close. I mean, what's wrong with me ...why does the nice guy always finish last ...and does he have to? My head says ...he's great ...awesome ..unbelieveable ...my heart says ...he's not the one. Am I still in love with rockstar? What's the hold up heart?

Friday, August 05, 2005

I COULD'VE DANCED ALL NIGHT...

...ahhhh ...I feel so "refreshed" this morning. I had the greatest time out with "the gimp girls" last night. I don't know what, exactly, made it so "great" ...just getting out I guess! This Thursday was long over-due;) I had the energy of a kid last night ..it felt gooooood!

I had a boy proposition me last night. ...He explained that he and his friend had a bet. If I would let him smack my a** ...his friend would give him $25 ...after which, he would split with me. ...Now I know it all sounds kind of "white trashy foul" ...but $12.50 is still $12.50 ...and Momma needs milk money (and to pay her tab at the end of night!!) ...So I let him **looks embarrassed** ...I allowed this stranger to pimp my butt out for $12.50! ...Better low class than NO CLASS, i guess! **SMACK** This was no little love pat ya'll -and when asked to pay up ...the boys turned yeller and left. ...Okay ...well maybe not of their own accord. I had to re-in-act my redneck drinking wine bit first "Awwww- Get on outta h'ya" **picture me swelled up, running two boys out of bar** They actually had the nerve to cuss ME on their way out. Boys. HMMP! Who needs 'em. ME! ME! ME!!

I usually like to have my weekend planned by this point. ..But *daughter* started high school on Wednesday and the soccer season has officially started. Looks like my weekend trips to the lake are about to be "all washed up" **picture VERY sad face**. We have a game saturday afternoon. Hopefully I can be in the water by 6!! ...I'm super psyched about next weekend!! I'M GOING TO THE RACES!! Never been before and don't know what to expect ...I think I'll like it!!! I love going fast!!!

Thursday, August 04, 2005

LIKE A COG IN A MACHINE...

I think it's time to re-negotiate my contract ...When I took this position I thought I'd have way more time to blog! WAAAAAHHHHH! I MISS MY BLOG!

p.s. Need reinforcements and nourishment -Send case of Lambrusco and Godiva Chocolates straight away!!!

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

ON LIFE....

Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, chocolate in one hand, red wine in the other, body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming "WOO HOO" what a ride!!" ~ Author Unknown