The Devil made me do it!

Okay, if you know me, you know that I have very little willpower whatsoever. I was not blessed with, what's it called? Ummm, a conscious? Just kidding, I do have one, but I do choose to ignore it from time to time in the name of fun. What is so wrong with that? I have a quote that I keep posted by my desk that reads like this... "You are free to make choices; you are not free to escape the consequences of those choices." I am not sure where this originated but I took it to heart almost 3 years ago when I found it. Three years ago, I was having the time of my life while I kept that little conscious of mine buried deep within, but I always knew there would be a day when I would have to face the facts that my actions did not affect me alone; but hurt many others along the way.

So, why am I bringing this up now? Well, here it is 10 days until Christmas and I should be worried about being a good girl so Santa will look kindly upon me and bring me that parfume from Victoria's Secret and the Keri Noble Cd that I've been wanting for a whole year! Instead, here I sit at my desk, thinking of all the fun I could be having if that little angel on my right shoulder would get snuffed out by the devil on my left. Life really is about choices and I don't regret any that I've made, I am happy and I love my family. I wouldn't change anything but I do believe that I will forever be looking for that excitment of the days gone by. Will I be 40, 50 and even 60 and STILL be looking for that "moment" that just blows my mind? Am I a Desperate Housewife? I never would have thought so, I mean, they are like in their 40's, on the verge of a mid-life crisis, not pushing 30 with a child under 2 at home.

So, I thought I was doing well at being a good wife and mother...that is until I was faced with a proposition that just seemed almost too good to turn down. I fought with this (yes, a sex proposition) for quite some time, even looked to SS for support. She knows that of my many weaknesses, this would be the biggest of them all. No strings attached, hot steamy sex with an adoring man who just wants to please and be pleased...nothing more. Oh, the simplicity of it all, no questions asked, no, I don't care that you took the garbage out AND did the dishes...just get me wet, do your thing and leave me be! We all know the perils of adultery and the dangerous road it can lead you down, so why was I even considering this proposal? Uhhh, were you even reading the above??? Because, it feels damn good!

In the face of temptation, how did I respond? I politely, begrudgingly said no and have tried to reconsider ever since. The better part of me knows that I made the right decision and I am glad I listened to my conscious, but man...what fun I could have!

Tis' the wonderful season...or not

Only 15 shopping days left till the big ole' guy in red makes his appearance. Ask me how many gifts I have yet to buy...okay, I have about 15! Considering I only have 20 people to buy for, I'd say I'm not doing so well. Now, I love Christmas as much as the next person and my favorite part is watching loved ones open gifts that I spent my hard earned cash (not to mention, countless hours) on, but I am a bit discouraged this year for some reason. Here it is only 15 days away and I have not one light, decoration or anything to celebrate the season. Tell me, when do working people with children, family obligations and more, have time to do these things? I feel completely overwhelmed this year with no end in sight. My problem this year, as in past years is not financial, but finding the time to get it all done and not kill myslef in the process. Anyone else have this problem? I like to think of myself as a multi-tasker as I think most mothers must be, but I'm finding it very difficult to juggle this year. Any suggestions from those Martha Stewart/June Cleaver types who have it all together and keep a smile on their face all the while?

HELP!!!!

The top 10 reasons I heart SS!

So, here it is nearly a month since my last blog and to my best blog friend...I am sorry! So, to make it up to you this one is all about you! I am sure I could come up with more but here is what I have so far.

10. SS loves to get her drink on as much as I, therefore I don't ever have to worry about being the "crazy drunk girl"...she has me beat there.

9. SS makes me laugh without saying a word. No, not because she looks funny but because she has this "up to no good smile" that I'm sure nobody else notices.

8. She tells me she loves me when we say goodbye. This may not seem like much to some but for me (someone who barely tells her mother this) it is.

7. SS is without a doubt, no questions asked, the BEST person to go out clubbin' with. Doesn't matter where, hole-in-the wall dive or best bar in town...she will make it fun.

6. She tolerates me correcting her vocabulary and doesn't get mad when I use big words on her, just because I want to feel smart.

5. She always remembers my b-day...okay, maybe not the date but the general time-frame at least and I know I can expect a good meal and a least 3 margarita's that day.

4. SS didn't run me over with her jeep when I did the unthinkable and slept with her boyfriend. She also didn't speak to me for what seemed like an eternity but at least she didn't egg my house!

3. SS will ALWAYS keep my secrets for me, good or bad and without any judgement. Everyone needs someone who will do this because it has certainly saved my sanity at times.

2. SS is the best back-tickler in the world and she doesn't even mind if I fall asleep before doing her back.

AND THE # 1 reason I heart SS is.....

1. She stays on my ass to blog! She knows how I have a great tendency to not finish what I start so I get many friendly reminders throughout the day and for that I'm grateful.

So, that is it....not really, I honestly have 1000 other reasons to heart her but mainly I heart her because she hearts me.